I don't have the words yet to express what I'm feeling after last weeks freeze, no power, water, or cell service - on top of a pandemic! There has been so much for so long, and one thing after another, that my feelings have feelings.
Yes, my eyes are on Jesus, they never left Him and never will. However, that doesn't take away the feelings that must be processed behind the multiple challenges being faced. Knowing Jesus is always there gives me hope that I will process this and that I will be okay, in time.
Nothing is instantaneous and having Jesus does not insulate us from the challenges of life or their impact on us.
I have to remember that being a believer doesn't mean I don't feel the emotions that the challenges bring. Saying what I feel doesn't lessen my faith. It actually strengthens my faith because I know I can lean on Jesus. I don't have to try to figure it all out by myself!
The Word tells us to fear not and to cast our cares and anxieties on Him. This means we will fear, have cares, and be anxious at times, but we don't have to let these feelings become our reality. Allow yourself to feel those feelings, King Jehoshaphat did! (See 2nd Chronicles 20) Then do what he did, he sought the Lord.
For now, I'm parked here:
"We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on You." (2nd Chronicles 20:12c AMPC)
I know I'm not myself right now. I know it's okay not to be okay. I also know this will pass. In the meantime I'm taking care of me while trusting God with the results.
Be Encouraged! ❤
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